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| Friday, January 20th, 2006 | | 8:51 pm |
The trip
(OOC: I'm really ill at the moment, so sorry if this is even less coherent then usual :P and yes, I KNOW I said I'd post when I got back from Wales, but...... I'm lazier then Robbie, k? XD;; BTW ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92) bhardevust, could you IM me or just get in contact with me please?) Well! It sounds like almost everyone had fun on the trip! ^^ It would have been so much better if Trixie and Dash hadden't gotten lost in the forest, I was SO worried I think I might have made myself ill ^^;;; When the two of them found thier way back I was so glad to see them! even that Dash bratI wanted to take the children on a fun trip before my pregnancy stops me from being able to do those kinda things (and of course, once the twins are born I'll have to stop teaching for a while and then when I go back I wont be able to do over night trips for a LONG, long while). Personally, I'm glad to be home! Not that I didn't enjoy myself (um...) it's just not very comfortable to go camping whilst four months pregnant with twins. One thing I really enjoyed was walking around the forests, I've ALWAYS loved forests and that handsom camping guide joining me was quite nice too! *^_^* The arts and crafts was quite fun aswell, I'm very proud of my little .... thing... that I made... it's... I'll figure out what it is later :P ^^;; So, I'm back home now........ wow, the house seems really empty -_- Um... would anyone like to go for a walk with me? Or simply pop round? I'm..... I'm feeling quite lonely at the moment. | | Monday, December 26th, 2005 | | 5:51 pm |
Happy Boxing day! I hope everyone had fun yesterday :) I've never celebrated Christmas on my own before, it was interesting ^^ I didn't get up till 11:30 AM! Rodney usualy already had me slaving away in the kitchen by then, and as a spoilt brat *ahem* child I would insist on waking my parents up at no less then 6 AM XD So, I lolled about in bed for a while before getting up, phoning a couple of friends in different time zones (I worked it out before I called, didn't want to be waking anyone up in the middle of the night!) then opend some of the cards I got sent, got dressed and went and ripped open the presents I had XDD Um, I'd like to say the day was all joy and happynes but I was worriying terrible for most of the time and I didn't really have a lot to do yesterday so I couldn't occupey my self with anything :( Thanks to those of you who gave me presents, they were so nice! ^^ | | Friday, December 23rd, 2005 | | 12:26 am |
...!!!
Well, um, TWINS!!! Yeah, I'm having twins! I just found out at my prenatal apointment. I think I'm still in shock a little, haven't really started to think it through properly because it feels like I have a million and one things running through my head as it is. I just thought you should all know that I'm expecting two little darlings! | | Wednesday, December 21st, 2005 | | 2:52 pm |
*sigh* I was heart broken then aprehensive then incredibly happy then I got to see the stars like I've never seen them before then I had to open my big mouth then I just wanted to *die* then I pleaded my case And now I'm worried out of my mind -_- | | 2:49 pm |
| | Monday, December 19th, 2005 | | 7:25 pm |
Well, I've had a very interesting few days! Kinda confusing and I'm a bit uh..... angry at someone. It started when I was out shopping for maternaty and baby clothing and I spotted Sportacus looking a little at odds. I offered to help him pick out some stuff for his new job as the games teacher (isn't that cool?!). We got talking and I ended up saying some stupid things and being pretty nasty just because he leads a different life to mine. I managed to apologise before he went but I still felt pretty bad. And then yesterday I ran into a certain someone again and we went to the cafe to get out of the cold and to talk. And then.... well, uh... ROBBIE SHOWED UP! He'd been watching us the whole time >_<;;; The git got angry at Sportacus for stupid selfish reasons and claimed he was just looking out for me. Yeah, I really believe that! I may only be 23 but I'm not a little child! >_<;;; Later on Robbie said some horried things to me via LJ and I've decided to just ignore him, cousin or not I wont stand to be spoken to like that. So, after HE left Sportacus and I spoke a little more and I got to know him a bit better. Things were a little... tense, but not for very long. I really like talking to Sportacus, he really is the sweetest guy! ^^ We decided to have dinner at the cafe, it was nice enough food but I found I wasn't very hungary and then afterwards he walked me HOME! Isn't that just too cute! And so sweet ^_^ It's such a shame men aren't as gentelmanly like that any more. And, well, maybe I WAS a little flirty with him, but.. oh! I really, really, REALLY like him! *^_^* | | Friday, December 16th, 2005 | | 11:43 pm |
Ah, I had a nice time at the ball and it sounds like everyone else really enjoyed them selves too! ^_^ All the children looked so smart in their outfits, the girl's dresses were just too cute (Trixie, you're wasn't cute, it was awesome! ;p) and the boys were very handsom in their tuxes. I didn't really have time to buy or make anything special so I just ultered one of my nicer dresses from a few years back. I added some things, changed the cut, made the skirt into a paneled one, those kind of things. Nothing too wonderful or fancy, just... nice. I wish I had a better one/new one, as the ball was probably my last chance to get dressed up all nicely and look some what decent before my baby bump shows, and then once the baby is born I'll be far too busy to go out and why should I be thinking of myself and how I look when I'll have a child to look after! Bye, bye life :p But yes, the ball was a lot of fun, I stayed longer then I thought I would and I dance with the Mayor a number of times (he always found some way to turn the topic of conversation to Bussie, I think it's so sweet how much he adores her! I wish I could find a man like that) but mainly I sat and had a couple (non-alcoholic) drinks and talked with a few people. But thank god I'm still put off by desserts! I'm not surprised Robbie pulled some kind of trick at the ball but did it really have to be such a disgusting one?!?! I've never been so glad to have the baby put me off certain foods -_-;;; I took a camera with me to the ball and the moment I took it out the children decided to take it into their own hands to take all the pictures for me, if only it were a digtial camra, I could have checked what kind of pictures they took before I sent off for the pictures to be developed ¬_¬ All in all it was a lovely evening and I'm glad everyone had fun! ^^ | | Wednesday, December 14th, 2005 | | 10:38 pm |
Drama, drama, drama
Well, my friend Steve and his drama workshop group came to the school today. I went to uni with Steve and he's always been a close friend, he's always so sweet to me! Telling me that I'm beautiful, giving me hugs and kisses, playing around and joking with me, making me laugh, saying things like "Your eyes are the most beautiful things I've seen in my life" to make me smile. He really is the sweetest guy! =3 So the morning started off with the play. It centered around three kids (obviously played by adults), one name John, one named Mandy and one named Chris. The three children didn't know each other. The play showed segments of the three children's lives and it was ment to show all the different types of verbal and physical abuse. For example they used the segments of John's life to show abuse at home that was both verbal and physical, Mandy's was verbal/mental abuse from class mates and Chris was from the perspective of a school bully who used physical violenc to get what he wanted. I thought that the parts of John's life were a bit harsh and upsetting to show to such young children, Steve promised me that it was perfectly fine for children as young as five to watch -_-;;; I understand that they were showing home abuse realisticly but it WAS a little to harsh for young children to watch (and I DEFINATLY had a go at Steve about the swearing in those scenes! He was very upset after I kinda got angry at him but I had good reason to to be mad, he promised to make it up to me somehow but I'm still upset with him!) The Mandy/school-verbal abuse parts were quite good, if not a bit mediacor and run-of-the-mill. They got the point across very well and the children could see how Mandy was effected by what the girls were saying to her but it was very `samey`, nothing too original but it wasn't bad. I particularly liked the Chris segments. I think it's quite a good idea to see things from the point of view of a physical bully. It showed that although a person may be violent and nasty it doesn't always mean that they're like that through and through. The young boy Chris had a short temper and would lash out, but the little story line showed that his class mates *knew* this and would purpously goad him and bother him just to see him lash out and then when he started to become violent all the time and not even need an excuse for his temper to be set off the other children ignored the fact that they had pressured him into being that way and instead built his reputation as a violent, nasty bullly for him, regardless of his feelings. And because of this people came to expect him to be trouble and stupid and to constantly pick fights and so everyone either gave up on him or never even gave him a chance in the first place so no matter how much he tried his evey path was blocked because of other people's views of him. It was really quite sad and touching. Of course a certain pupil of mine thought that the play was funnie and took every chace he could to yell things such as "NICE OUFIT, fag!", "Who told YOU you could act?" and "Get off the stage! The backdrop can act better then you!" at the actors (as well as booing and hissing quite a lot) and he just DIDN'T seem to understand the point of the sences at all. No, tell a lie, if he didn't understand then he wouldn't have been able to come up with lines such as "Go on! Hit him!", "Punch the pansy's lights out! No self respecting guy would take those insults!", "You wussy!" ETC during the Chris sences. "You're so ugly even your parents hate you!", "No wonder the Dad hits him, he's a useless twit!", "That kid is pathetic, he deserves a good kick!" ETC during the John sences and..... I'm not even going to repeat what he said during the Mandy scenes! That boy... has no soul detentions for the next two weeks. >_<;;;; The workshop after the play was pretty good, although I guess I don't have to tell you that a certain someone was still making trouble -_-;; It was the usual drama excercises, roleplay, hotseating, thought tracking etc. I think the children really enjoyed the day over all and I hope *some* of them might have learnt something about bullying (although that isn't very likely) and that the others learnt how to deal with physical and verbal abuse that might happen in their own lives and who they can talk to if it is/does. Wow, it was quite a day! Current Mood:  drained | | Sunday, December 11th, 2005 | | 4:39 pm |
Hmmmmmmmm, this week wasn't so great -_-;; My first teaching job EVER and two of my students get into a terrrible, and not to mention VIOLENT fight with each other. One of said students acctually had the nerve to insult my unborn child but I gave as good as I got >=). I'm getting FAT and I'm only just over two months gone, I should have at least still have my normally shaped body untill the fourth or so month. So that must mean that I'm naturally FAT and UGLY. I have a nice dress to wear to the Christmas ball but I don't wanna go (see above) AND I have no one to take me to it (as a DATE that is ;_;) I have to drive two hours out of town for my pre-natal docter's apointments and when I went for my first check-up the other day all the women gave me dirty looks after one of them asked me where my husband was and I was in a bad mood so I kinda maybe sorta shouted at her -_-;;; At least ONE good thing is happening, I have a surprise for the students for monday's lessons!! I hope they like it! (But knowing my current luck, they wont) | | Wednesday, December 7th, 2005 | | 12:59 pm |
Hmmm, I'm really tired again but I don't want to go to sleep because I had another really bad nightmare last night -_-;;; Ugh. And I'm happy about being pregnant, but.......... I have a PERSON growing INSIDE ME, that is, kinda mind boggling to think about. I have a tiny little thing inside of my right now and over the next seven months it's going to get bigger and bigger and then be a living baby, right inside my body. And then, it'll be a child, then a teen and then an adult and I'll watch my child grow up and think `Wow, you started life as a part of me and now you're here looking me in the eyes!` Ok, I should really stop thinking too deeply about things when I'm half asleep -_-;;; And, now I've forgotten what else I was going to write about >_<;; Oh yeah, I remember, but I'll leave that for some other time. If I don't forget again. Plus, it upsets me a little. | | Sunday, December 4th, 2005 | | 11:16 pm |
I wont be playing tennis any more. Nor will the children be learning it at school. Nor will I be leanding out my cookbooks. Nor will I be asking Veronica's adivce on a certain matter. (A matter to be discused below) Right. On to other, nicer, news. I'm pregnant. And... after being pretty damned scared, then worried, then blank, then scared again, I've decided that this really makes me happy. Even if the father of the child is a completly monster. Yes, Im... I'm going to be a Mommy! *^_^* Robbie will, of course, be the godfather. ((OOC EDIT: I just got a very funny image of the children showing up to start school and there being an official looking notice on the door saying: Class canceled due to pregnancy)) Current Mood:  verry angry at a certain woman | | Friday, December 2nd, 2005 | | 8:43 pm |
Well, first things frist. Trixie and Dash had their ridicules `showdown` and I'm so upset. For two reasons really, the frist one if that fact that they had this stupid trouble making showdown AND got into a physical fight. The second reason hits closer to home, quite litrally really. ( Read more... )But, something nice to write about now! Rottenella came and stayed with me the other night because Robbie was out. It was really good to get to talk just me and her. I think she had fun, well, I hope she did anyway! We watched one of my favourite, Labyrinth, and chated and just hung out really! ^_^ I really did enjoy having her round, it was nice to spend an evening not worrying about all the stuff that's going on with me and just have fun. Also, I've started taking lessons with Victor (as I've mentioned before). It's really great to get out of the house for a while, I always DID enjoy tennis and I'm finding that I haven't forgotten as much as I thought I had! I was looking through some old photos, my father was constantly taking pictures so there were quite a few draws full of them, and I found on of me when I was 17 at it was just before a singles match I had. My mother had wanted me to waer this god awful tennis dress the was all baggie and went down to my knees but being the spoilt little madame I was I'd insisted on wearing my tiny little sports shorts and this sports top that was more like a bra! I think I might how won purly because opponent was Johnny Steven-Smith, a boy who had a crush on me. Poor thing just couldn't concentrate on the match! >=) I was going to offer to make Victor a meal as a way of saying `thank you` but it seems that Veronica beat me to it! XDD | | Thursday, December 1st, 2005 | | 9:58 am |
Well, I'm feeling a bit better. I'm not so tired any more (which is good) and my eating habbits have more or less returned to normal (but I still have stand to even LOOK at anything sweet). Seeing as how I'm fee,ing better I've decided to start class this comming monday, I'll make a formal anouncement later. I've more or less asked Victor Purge to teach me how to play tennis. I had lessons when I was younger, well... I'm still young but I mean *younger* younger, as in pre-worlds most horrible five years ever. I've started to think as everything as before and after. I don't like thinking about the `during` -_-. So yes, I'm taking up tennis again. I really need to do something other then clean, read and plan lessons. Before, I used to have quite an active life (much to the distaste of Robbie, and Rodney, but he soon put a stop to all my hobbies. In fact, it feels weird that I can pursue anything that takes my fancy, I had to fight so hard just to be allowed to go to University). Ugh, sorry. I really need to stick to `talking` about the positive things in my life NOW rather then to bad things from my marrige (although, you could hardly call it a marrige). Tennis, teaching, being able to read what I want and go out when ever I want. And, maybe I'll start taking up ALL my old hobbies again. Any one wanna go clubing? ^_- XDD Oh, and, I might get to hear Victor play his guitar! I've always loved live music. Well, music in general! Oh! And it's the sillyest thing, TWO people have suggested that I'm PREGNANT! That's stupid, right? I can't be pregnant. Maybe I should still go to the doctors, just in case. Not that I'm worried. Rodney told me he couldn't have children and after five years of being his wife and not having any children I doubt that he would have gotten me pregnant the last time that we... well... you know... before, things, happened. | | Tuesday, November 29th, 2005 | | 9:00 pm |
(OOC: Sorry I haven't been commenting/updating. I was doing 9 hour days at college friday before last, monday, tuesday and then a twelve hour day on wednesday. This is all due to the fact that wednesday was the night of our performance. Thursday was spent sleeping off the show and after show drinks at the pub. Since then I've been working on the LT SecretSanta thing and the advent calander. So, yes, many, many, MANY apologies. Oh, and hello to the new members, I've just friended you/left comments, sorry I didn't say `hi` when you joined ^_^;;) I haven't been updating latly, sorry. When I stayed round Robbie's I didn't really want to go on a computer. In fact, I didn't really want to do anything. I talked a bit to Robbie but so much is happening in his life, what with Veronica, Rottenella etc etc that we didn't do much else other then talk. Except after I short while I didn't even want to talk so I huled myself up in the bedroom he let me stay in and I just slept. I didn't really dream and I'm kinda glad of that little mercy. I came back home because all I was doing at Robbie's was laying on the bed and trying not to think. Or move. I'm just feeling so... listless, and tired. Very, very, very tired. I don't know why. To tell the truth, even just sitting here at my computer I feel like I've been working all night and all day, instead of sleeping for pretty much 90% of a 24 hour day. My sleeping paterns are all messed up now. Getting myself to eat has become a task and a half now. The thought of some foods just turns my stomach, right now it's anything cake like. I kept on getting wiffs of Robbie's baking whilst I stayed with him and it was all I could do to stop myself vomiting. But don't get me wrong, I HAVE been eating, I had a big salad and made myself some nice home made soup as soon as I arrived home a couple days ago and I've been making myself good home cooked meals everyday, it just that sometimes I'll start cooking a type of food, really, really, wnating it but by the time I'm done I've gone off it. Oh, just listen to my, my eating habits aren't what people want to read about. Not that I have anything more exciting to write about. I think I might take myself off to the doctor's soon. I mean, I'm over my little breakdown (well, almost, maybe) I'm just not feeling very well, like I've just been talking about. Maybe I have some bug or something? I'm going to go for a walk. I can't mope around the house all day and I need to do some shopping. Laters. {EDIT: Why did the house seem cleaner then when I left? All the spiders are gone and every room has been dusted and hoovered. Does it just seem that way because I've been gone or is my mind playing tricks on me?} {EDIT ": Hello to LazyTown's new arrivals, I'm sorry I haven't greeted you earlier, but, well, circumstances and such} Current Mood: drained | | Sunday, November 20th, 2005 | | 11:15 pm |
(OOC: Angst!Cherry, just to let you know)
I'm going to go stay with Robbie for a few days. I'm just not feeling... right at the moment and I need to be with someone, someone who cares for me and who I can talk to. I thought that when you got older the places you knew as a child seemed smaller, so why is it my old house, the house I grew up in, suddenly seems far too big? It's so wide and empty and I feel so utterly alone. I just.... Oh god, I feel like I'm being torn apart from the inside!! I want to talk about it, but I'm still so scared! It was only two weeks ago that I got out, that I left and I didn't have to live with it any more, the suffering is still too fresh to talk about but at the same time I'm almost hurting physically by keeping it inside! I've never been like this before, even during those five years I managed to keep my self smiling and optemistic, but now I'm not living day to day like how I was it's almost like I've taken a step back and looked at my life with HIM and realised that I.... that I..... could have... HE could have.. I'll be at Robbie's if anyone needs me. | | Friday, November 18th, 2005 | | 4:02 pm |
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Hmmm, I'm feeling a little funny, like maybe I'm ill but at the same time I'm not. It's just... an odd feeling inside of me. And... this is going to sound weird... but I've got this horried forboding feeling hanging over me. Like something bad it going to happen, I just don't know when, where, why or what. >_<;; It's driving me crazy! Maybe it's just because I had a terrible nightmare last night. (Cut for, well, nightmarish imagry) ( Read more... )I'm so confused -_-;;; Current Mood:  depressed | | Monday, November 14th, 2005 | | 12:26 pm |
Spider!!!
I just managed to get away from a GAINT SPIDER!! It's still in my bed room! Urgh! I hate spiders, I really do. And they hate me. Or they might like me lots and lots seeing as how they're always trying to crawl on my face or get in my hair! Ack! That make me feel so sick >_<;;; It doesn't help that this house is FULL TO THE BRIM with cobwebs and creepy crawlies and giant monster spider who want to jump on my face. But then again what did I expect? No one has lived in this old house for two years and mother and father were far too old to be able to clean properly before the passed on. I hope there aren't any spiders in the school house -_-;;; I'll wear a head scarf when I go down there, just incase. It's taking me so long to clean this place up, the only room I've really managed to sort out is my old bedroom, the bathroom and the kitchen. I might sell the place, it may be my childhood home but it's far too big for single, solitary me. Right, so, my plans thus far are: Morning (unspecified time): meet Trixie (if she still wants to help) and head down to the school. Clean up the class room and re-organise if need be. Make sure stock cupboard is well... stocked. Ensure I have all the correct teaching materials. 2PM: Head off to creepy cow billboard. Clean up (again) and help Robbie with the house work. Go out for ice cream (double chocolate brownie or mango sorbe delight? Maybe both?) catch up. Have fun. Evening: Kill spiders. No, better yet, get someone else to kill spiders! Oh great, now I'm too concerned about what flavour ice cream I want to go spider hunting in my bedroom -_-;; Current Mood:  awake | | Sunday, November 13th, 2005 | | 8:12 pm |
Home sweet home!
Ah! I'm acctually GLAD to be back in LazyTown now! To think I was soo keen to leave, and that was only five years ago! I'm still not a small town kinda girl, but now I know for sure I'm definatly not ment for the inner city life! To think I married that horred Rodney all for the sake of leaving here and ended up... well... I shan't dicuss that now. But it wasn't pleasent. Thank goodness I got into the city university! I've already met some of the children I'll be teaching, I like them all so far and I have to say that Trixie is quite interesting! It'll be nice to see them all in the class room. Speaking of which, Milford informs me that no repairs will be needed for the school house but I've decided to go down there and sort everything out a little later. I'll need to familiarise myself with the building and I might want to change the lay-out a little bit. I've decided to forgo the typical posters that promote children to get reading and find out how fun maths can be. Instead I'm going to have the children make their own! ^_^ I'll give them each a subject and ask them to find one fact or statistic about it and make a fun, bright poster to put on the walls. I'm perticularly excited about seeing my cousin Robbie again! A part from the occasional teasing and fight between us he was always my fave cousin and I like to think that we were quite close ^_^ I'm also excited about meeting Rottenella! Robbie's not-quite-a-daughter, she'll be joining my class. I wonder, seeing as how I'm Robbies *first* cousin that would make me an aunt to any children he had, but Rottenella is a not-quite-a-daughter so does that make me a not-quite-an-aunt? The connections between relatives has always confused me -_-;; Right, I'm off to start work on this terms lesson plan ^_^ | | Saturday, November 12th, 2005 | | 11:04 pm |
Well hello there!
Hello friends! I'm once again living in LazyTown, on my own, it's been about five years since I left and I'm still undecided as to whether I'm glad to be back or not. I suppose it's just because it's my first night back and the last time I was in this house my perants were alive ;_; Oh well! At least I cleared eveything up with them before they passed away! It's so ODD being back in my old room. I haven't been here since I was eightteen years old, and now I'm twentythree and the room seems so... small and childish. Patterend yellow wallpaper and blue carpet! What WAS I thinking!? Well, now you know my thoughts about being back in LazyTown I'd like to friend some of the towns folk here on LJ, and it would be so nice to get to know the children before I start my job as thier teacher ! ^_^ I wonder if anyone remembers me? Of course, my last name was Bitter back then but I did have my wedding here so SOMEONE is bound to remember little Cherry girl! ^_^ Good night! Current Mood: drained |
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